Just a warning, I may not finish this post. I just took two sleeping pills and chased them with a beer. I've developed horrible insomnia. I hate being alone at night with my thoughts. I don't like where they go.
My mortgage company effed up and took out two thousand dollars extra from our bank account. They sent us a letter two months ago saying that our monthly payment would go down to $1,700 because we no longer had to pay PMI. Wanting to pay off our house sooner, I called them and told them to make our new payment an even $2,000 and put the extra $300 to the principle. Well the asshat deducted $1,700 and then an ADDITIONAL $2,000. This was on July 3rd. Despite apologizing numerous times, they have yet to put the money back. Dillweeds.
My husband found my secret credit card charges. He, "accidentally" opened the bill. I told my mother and her reply was, "did I teach you nothing?"
I've started to get that feeling again. That feeling that has no words. It's because Jimmy's second anniversary is coming up. I feel like a black cloud is following me. I want to be happy with Andy. After all, I have one living child, which is more than many women have. Yet I can't.
Oh.. and my MIL may be moving in with us. She cannot move around very well and needs care. While I don't want her to move in with us, I can't tell my husband, "no." What if it were reversed and it was my mother who needed care? But uugghhh. Just ugghhhh.
On a happy note, Andy is now pulling up to a stand on EVERYTHING!! He'll be cruising in no time. And he's darn cute too.
HA!! It appears I'm still awake. Stupid over the counter sleeping pills!!! I'm calling for my Doc to get an RX for Ambien. Ahh.. Ambien..